I never thought my drinking was a problem but I embarrassed myself so much last night and I feel so ashamed this morning. I went to a work party and hadn't had much food, we finished work and went straight to the pub followed by going to a bar where drinks were free. The problem when I drink is I feel completely fine until I realise I have drunk way too much and it's bad. On the tube home last night I started to feel really sick so tried to hold it in, this resulted in me spray vomiting on the tube and it going on strangers who obviously moved away and were not happy about this, I feel so bad and guilty for this. Luckily one man was so nice and gave me a bag and tissue. At this point I was covered in vomit myself and still had about 30 minutes on the tube. I was so embarrassed as was still vomiting (once on the platform even) and I could smell the sick so anyone near me could too. To end the night I left my phone on the tube which was luckily enough picked up by someone who I've managed to contact.
I'm 24 and vomiting on people in public is just not acceptable, I've never felt so embarrassed or bad in my life. I didn't realise my drinking was a problem until today as I only really socially drink but if I'm doing things like this it's not ok. I've realised today that I need to change something and be more aware of how much I drink and the states I get myself in when drunk as I never want to feel this embarrassment again. I keep thinking how I'll be the story that these people talk about and have so much anxiety over it, I'm very glad they were all strangers as at least I will never see them again but that doesn't stop the embarrassment.