I just recently blacked out and I have had the worst anxiety about it. I ended up peeing on the back porch at the person’s party (i’m a female btw) and a couple people saw me but i’m so embarrassed by it and i’m not sure how to deal with the embarrassment. I want to apologize to the owner of the house but him and I havent exactly been on good terms for a while. At the same time I just want to drop off the face of the earth and not drink anymore. I just want to feel better by this somehow and somehow move on from this